"Yeah." Probably. Except he still hasn't really talked to Kiryu on a personal-professional level since that first trip to the bar. Not about Neal's own issues, anyway. Part of it is how swept away by everything he's felt. Part of it is pure and simple fear.

He keeps his eyes fixed on his tea. "If Will hadn't shown up. If he wasn't in the picture, and you hadn't been my warden. Do you think I would have had a chance?"