I'm not trying to deflect. It's important to me that you know you're not hurting me and that I'm not hurting myself.

I'm too analytical and not emotional enough about any of this. That's a me problem. They're too emotional and not analytical enough, which is a them problem, I guess, but emotion-based responses are prized here way more than analytical ones are, so it's on me to adjust. It's frustrating; I'm frustrated. But I'm not-- I don't expect it to be fair.